I finally was able to redo my page!  What do you think?  I'm not sure how I feel about all of the colors, so I may change it.  But I love the background!  I saw a painting of this when I was in elementary school and fell in love with it.  I think it's called "Midsummer's Night" or something to that effect.  But I don't care what it's called, it's beautiful.  And actually, it kind of reminds me of my idealistic self.  That's kind of what my hair is like (a little lighter and shorter, but still curly), and I love the idea of playing in a soft gown in a field of blossoms lit up by faeries.  I know, impossible, and at times, rather cheesy to think about, but I'm allowed.  We all have dreams that seem too fanciful to every be shared.  Well, I guess I just shared mine.  (Well, at least one!) 

As far as life goes, things are progressing.  Everything is gradually easing, as it always does, though I now feel guilt about the way I've been feeling, and at times still feel.  Feeling of inadequacy are hard to overcome.  But life continues, as always, and the sun rises again.

I like the look. Not only do you like fairies, you look like a fairy...you just have that extra sparkle. Sweetie, your a dream.

You are so NOT inadequate. But anyways, you know what I think about you. You seem to not like receiving a lot of compliments, so I shall detist.
As I told you last night, I absolutely ADORE your new background. Your journal is so inviting now. Your hair is actually really close to this girl's hair, it's not lighter, just curlier. But, I bet you she doesn't have the "perfect curl" knowledge that you alone seem to possess. I have never met anyone with more perfect curls.

I love it ! It is so cute !!!;)

Thanks for the e-mail. i got the message that you called me, thanks for that too. I went out shopping today to drown my sorrows in fashion. i am eating normally, i am just sort of in shock.